I don't know how to feel right now. I said that I am not bothered by it but its a lie. I do mind, a lot. I wish I could tell you I don't feel the same way but you didn't actually ask the question. You confessed alright. Now my heart is uneasy not because I am confused of my feelings but I don't know how to relay my sincere thoughts to you. I don't want to hurt our friendship but what you just did literally just broke it. It will no doubt that it will be awkward between us after this. I feel like screaming and shouting "I don't like you!" but that just make me look bad. I dislike it when you touch my forehead, checking for fever or fixing my fringe. If it was done but someone I like, I would be in cloud nine but I feel very uncomfortable although you have no ill thoughts. You utter the L word but do you really? You don't sound like you mean it and do you actually know what it means? You don't simply utter those words if you don't mean it. Right here right now I feel want to tell you that I don't feel the same way. Please stop this. And my friends are not helping at all. Saying things like "he is a good guy, you might eventually like him, did you have a date?" It pisses me off so much I feel like cursing which right now I am doing in my mind. This has to stop!!!
This scandal has gone out of control. I want to end it. I don't even have the chance to develop feelings for someone because of this scandal. People may have never tried it but I did. I have experienced liking a guy. But surrounded by the news of a guy liking me, I could never show my feelings to him. Do you know how much it hurts when the guy you like tries to pair you up with another guy? Hearing him say that right in your face hurts badly. I cried many nights due to my secret crush. I took me 3 damn months and a 2 months school holiday for my heart to stop beating for him. Although I stopped my feelings for him, I can help feeling happy when he lends my book, when he compliments me. I remember lending his book and taking good care of it becareful not to bend it. I remember I silly I was when I liked him.
【 Life is too serious to be taken seriously 】
Life’s too short. Seize the moment.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
KEPONG BARU IR DAY
i have not been updating for a long long time...
so i decided to blog about today event...
KEPONG BARU INTERNATIONAL RELATIONSHIP DAY !
I don't think I was late...
Maybe just a few minutes???
Haha...
Anyways...
My parents brought me to the venue and just as I entered the hall,
I saw many people in formal outfits that were way better than mine... T.T
I did not take a long time to find my friends and other members of my school Leo Club...
We paid the entrance fee and queued up before entered the real hall where the event took place...
As we entered, the place was dark but was lit up with lots of colourful disco light....
We found a place for our members to sit but had to find more chairs as there was not enough....
As we settle down, the emcee started the event...
We had our roll call and leo pledge like usual....
After that, we had our chance to eat....
There were performance while we were eating so I could not enjoyed them....
But after eating, me and my friends went in front of the stage to enjoy the performance by a local band...
Even if I scream my heart out no one can hear my voice..
It was that loud....
By the time we walk back to the rest of the members, They were half deaf by the music....
We even got the chance to snap a few photos with the performers....
I was sad I was not able to interact with other leo club members due to my shy nature....
But overall it was an amazing night....
I hope i will be able to experience more events like this again...
This is by far the best night in my sweet 16 year... ^^
so i decided to blog about today event...
KEPONG BARU INTERNATIONAL RELATIONSHIP DAY !
I don't think I was late...
Maybe just a few minutes???
Haha...
Anyways...
My parents brought me to the venue and just as I entered the hall,
I saw many people in formal outfits that were way better than mine... T.T
I did not take a long time to find my friends and other members of my school Leo Club...
We paid the entrance fee and queued up before entered the real hall where the event took place...
As we entered, the place was dark but was lit up with lots of colourful disco light....
We found a place for our members to sit but had to find more chairs as there was not enough....
As we settle down, the emcee started the event...
We had our roll call and leo pledge like usual....
After that, we had our chance to eat....
There were performance while we were eating so I could not enjoyed them....
But after eating, me and my friends went in front of the stage to enjoy the performance by a local band...
Even if I scream my heart out no one can hear my voice..
It was that loud....
By the time we walk back to the rest of the members, They were half deaf by the music....
We even got the chance to snap a few photos with the performers....
I was sad I was not able to interact with other leo club members due to my shy nature....
But overall it was an amazing night....
I hope i will be able to experience more events like this again...
This is by far the best night in my sweet 16 year... ^^
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
PRE CHINESE NEW YEAR.....
This year...
My school gave a few days holiday before CNY....
I think it was pretty cool....
I get to help out preparing for the Chinese New Year...
This year it was pretty cool...
I got new experiences here....
I sang karaoke during midnight...
Haha....
It was totally awesome....
My cousins were very brave....
They sang without the fear of embarassing themselves...
They gave me the confidence to sing bravely as well...
Btw, they were good singers....
Hope I can do that again some time later.. ^^
My school gave a few days holiday before CNY....
I think it was pretty cool....
I get to help out preparing for the Chinese New Year...
This year it was pretty cool...
I got new experiences here....
I sang karaoke during midnight...
Haha....
It was totally awesome....
My cousins were very brave....
They sang without the fear of embarassing themselves...
They gave me the confidence to sing bravely as well...
Btw, they were good singers....
Hope I can do that again some time later.. ^^
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Decisions....Choices....
life...
we have to make decisions and choices...
some difficult...
some easy....
some might even decide how we will live....
so i am scared...
to choose...
afraid i might choose wrongly...
so i depend on others....
to make decisions for me...
i feel lost...
like a little lost puppy...
dun know where to go...
what to do...
thinking to all these things...
makes me scared to face the world...
i dun even know my ambition...
so i am afraid of my future....
can ppl give me good advices????
we have to make decisions and choices...
some difficult...
some easy....
some might even decide how we will live....
so i am scared...
to choose...
afraid i might choose wrongly...
so i depend on others....
to make decisions for me...
i feel lost...
like a little lost puppy...
dun know where to go...
what to do...
thinking to all these things...
makes me scared to face the world...
i dun even know my ambition...
so i am afraid of my future....
can ppl give me good advices????
Thursday, November 25, 2010
LOVE
"Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished."
If you have been following my blog...
You might have seen this quote along with other quotes....
It is the moving text below my blog title...
I totally agree with this quote....
But what I want to write in this post is not that....
It is my love is multiplied but not divided....
Love can be found in any forms....
Or should I say in many ways.....
There is love towards family, love towards friends, love towards your lover....
But the love I want to write here is.....
My love towards artist/idols....
I am sure every teenager would like at least one idol/artist in their life....
Same does for me....
If you have not notice....
I have been adding names at the sidebar of my blog....
They are the artist/idols that I am fond of/admire.
But that doesn't mean I have forgotten the ones I admire earlier....
My love for them just multiplied....
I still squeal see them on screen...
Get excited hearing their voice....
Mesmerize just seeing their talents....
It is not fair if you say I forgot about the others....
It is just that I am happy I notice more talented people....
If you have been following my blog...
You might have seen this quote along with other quotes....
It is the moving text below my blog title...
I totally agree with this quote....
But what I want to write in this post is not that....
It is my love is multiplied but not divided....
Love can be found in any forms....
Or should I say in many ways.....
There is love towards family, love towards friends, love towards your lover....
But the love I want to write here is.....
My love towards artist/idols....
I am sure every teenager would like at least one idol/artist in their life....
Same does for me....
If you have not notice....
I have been adding names at the sidebar of my blog....
They are the artist/idols that I am fond of/admire.
But that doesn't mean I have forgotten the ones I admire earlier....
My love for them just multiplied....
I still squeal see them on screen...
Get excited hearing their voice....
Mesmerize just seeing their talents....
It is not fair if you say I forgot about the others....
It is just that I am happy I notice more talented people....
Friday, November 5, 2010
- 051110 -
누가 좀 도와 줘요 ....
내가 뭘해야할지 모르 겠네 ....
그것은 나의 심혼 같이 이다 일정하게 체재할 수 없다….
나는 천천히 얻는다 또 다른 한개에 사로잡혀…
나의 심혼은 나가 저를… 불쾌하게 한 무언가를 볼 때 불안하다
말해 봐요 ...
이걸 어떻게 막을 수 있습니까???
내가 뭘해야할지 모르 겠네 ....
그것은 나의 심혼 같이 이다 일정하게 체재할 수 없다….
나는 천천히 얻는다 또 다른 한개에 사로잡혀…
나의 심혼은 나가 저를… 불쾌하게 한 무언가를 볼 때 불안하다
말해 봐요 ...
이걸 어떻게 막을 수 있습니까???
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Field Trip - 191010 -
WE gather at school before the buses arrive....
My whole class was placed in the same bus....
That way, we all could talk and have fun in the bus together....
We sat in pairs during the trip....
Bcoz there sre extra places, some of us walk around and sat different places....
First, we stop at the chocolate factory....
It was lame....
We only spend 30 minutes there....
We watch a video of how the chocolate was processed and walk around the factory...
We didn't even get to try anything... *boo*
Later we went to the bread factory.....
It was better than the chocolate factory...
There have some kind of muzium there which shows you the history of making bread.....
We then walk around the factory....
There was so much thing to see....
We head of to a mini aquarium next....
*snores* it was like a fish selling store.....
Nothing nice to see...
The best was the bread factory....
I recommend going there.....
That's all....
It was a average trip for me.....
My whole class was placed in the same bus....
That way, we all could talk and have fun in the bus together....
We sat in pairs during the trip....
Bcoz there sre extra places, some of us walk around and sat different places....
First, we stop at the chocolate factory....
It was lame....
We only spend 30 minutes there....
We watch a video of how the chocolate was processed and walk around the factory...
We didn't even get to try anything... *boo*
Later we went to the bread factory.....
It was better than the chocolate factory...
There have some kind of muzium there which shows you the history of making bread.....
We then walk around the factory....
There was so much thing to see....
We head of to a mini aquarium next....
*snores* it was like a fish selling store.....
Nothing nice to see...
The best was the bread factory....
I recommend going there.....
That's all....
It was a average trip for me.....
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